How do I put this into words? Will my words truly encapsulate what happened? .. Lets see.
Anyone who has known me for approximately 6 minutes will know that I have been a fan of Kylie Minogue since I was about 8 years old and I can now proudly add KYLIE herself to the list of people who now know this . Now let me add that I have loved Kylie since a time when Lady Gaga was not even born. Mid 1984 was when I first had any visual or auditory sensation involving Kylie.
Let me just clarify for you, there is no shame in sharing this story with you but I have been debating as to whether to share this post as I keep it so close to my heart and a moment I will treasure till my last breath. think there is an element of expectation I play up to when I speak of the Minogue sisters but if i am TRULY honest.. I think I would take a bullet for them.. literally.
The story takes place with Kylie’s “Aphrodite Les Folies Tour” was making its way to Sydney. I had my tickets in hand and was sneaking snippets from the show on youtube. I hate surprises generally and nothing had prepared me for what was coming my way. I was in my bedroom and received a text message from Charlotte Dawson.. asking me if was free on Monday night and if so to be “gay security” to an event.. to meet KYLIE.I re read the message a couple of times.. it felt like an hour had passed before I responded. I think it was about 3 seconds..My gay life flashed before my eyes and for about 5 seconds I thought this was a joke, but no Charlotte wouldn’t do that to me. I felt the blood drain from my face… my arm felt weak and I could hear my heart beat over the planes flying over my house at the time.
I don’t think I told a single soul for about a day and half.. I was stunned.. I wanted to tell the universe that FINALLY this day was coming… In 2 days time.
The Monday morning had rolled on and I was in my scrubs at 7am and setting up my operating theatre when a co worker casually asked how I was.. I looked up.. and my voice box EXPLODED and in micro seconds I had explained what was happening that night… She looked puzzled for a second as the words were still being processed in her brain then she SCREAMED….. I felt like screaming too but I am not always that gay.. (unless at a Kylie show) .. Word had spread faster than a hospital super bug through the halls of the Operating Theatre complex..The day rolled slowly I had played this event in my mind over and over since childhood and I was HOURS away from meeting Kylie. I was at work in my scrubs and finding it so difficult to concentrate..
In my head Im thinking I wish my parents had been alive to see this moment happen.
What was I going to wear? echoed through my head and out of the mouths of those who now knew… I had no clue.. How do I look more like Craigy and alot less like Shrek? come on standing next to a Minogue when u are built like Andre Leon Talley ( google him) .. its almost as terrifying as meeting the pop princess herself.
320pm hit and I FLEW out the door to go home, change and be at Charlotte’s By 5pm. Any good homosexual would break out into a nervous rash with that timeframe. A phone call in the cab from Alex Perry did not help my nerves but did make me laugh.
I get to Charlotte’s and I dont recall being overly chatty as I sat in my fave chair at her dining table… As Charlotte got ready I thought wow I wish it was so effortless and a clean experience when I was getting ready. I think Charlotte may have sensed how I was feeling as she swept into and out of the kitchen pouring me a MOFO glass of white.. and sensibly taking the bottle away..
In no time at all we were off to the cocktail party and some twitter convo and Kylie talk in the car enroute to WildFire.
Running into a friend outside the restaurant, I didn’t recognise at first, was very awkward an embarrassing.. I could have peed myself at this point and would not have noticed. I was not really expecting to see anyone I knew to be honest.
Once inside I had broken my “no alcohol till AFTER I meet Kylie” again by sinking some Chandon that made my skin tingle. I sometimes react to some wines. After meeting some people I chat to on twitter.. I felt more relaxed and for a time forgot why I was there! despite the Kylie chatter happening around me.
The first Kylie I met was Kylie Gillies from Channel 7’s ” The Morning Show” who at first .. thought she knew me. I politely reminded her that she and her camera crew had dropped me off at school once mannnnny years ago after interviewing my father one morning back when she was on prime news in Tamworth!. I she audibly gasped and I think her heart stopped. I reassured her that I was younger than I looked. She still posed with me for a photo. bless.
After sinking a couple of AMAZING cocktails with Lychee.. I met another Minogue fan-Shelly Horton who is extremely sweet. My instant impression was that she would be totally fun on a dancefloor. She out bubbled the Chandon on the drinks trays that were swooping amongst the guests.
I was DYING to and excited to meet kiss and hug fashionista and Super mum Melissa Hoyer, whom I have adored and respected for many years.She seemed impressed by my ability to increase my nervous heart rate to speeds beyond that of a Janome or egg whisk she may have encountered in her time. After Melissa had returned from her chat and photograph with Kylie, I had to ask.. “what do you say to her??”
I heard of and had been invited to be a part of a Flashmob led by Sydney drag queen Joyce Maynge- that was going to serenade Kylie that evening. I didn’t have the heart to decline them and say I was going to be inside Wildfire that night.
After some drinks and chatting. I heard the outside mob singing and cheering…flash bulbs were catching the corner of my eye. I unintentionally and rudely interrupted Charlotte’s conversation to say in almost a SHRILL… “I think Kylie is here” Annnnnnnd cue the adrenaline and endorphin rush the second I saw her manager Terry Blamey outside and then as I stood on tippy toes and I saw the back of her head( oh my god my heart was POUNDING)
Like in a movie… two people blocking my view separated and a visual direct path to Kylie was formed.I was on sensory overload, I am sure many people have conjured up heart attacks or strokes during this kind of and on much less than what I was feeling but I was determined to be up right and conscious . Twenty something years of waiting, praying, daydreaming and preparing was counting down to MINUTES,minutes until I would meet my idol Kylie Minogue..
Kylie moved through the crowd and was being introduced to newbies from the music and local celebrity scene and catching up with those she has known for years. I was in awe. In my head I kept thinking how could something so petite and amazing have this affect on me? ummmmm Who Cares?! was all I could come up with and now was not a moment to ponder. I soaked it all up and loved it.
Charlotte and Melissa kept encouraging me to go up and say Hi…. no amount of shoving got me to move. I would have stepped off the edge of a tall building first at that point if i had to choose that would have been easier. I was THAT scared to say Hi..
Kylie through the crowd as she made her way to the stage down the back of the restaurant.. I would get close enough to say Hi but choked.
In a what felt like a last ditch attempt.. Charlotte had postioned me near to the stage and I was to be her final meet and greet before hitting the stage.
There was a blurry moment of I dont know what happened then suddenly .. Kylie looks up ( im 6ft1) and smiles.. we make eye contact, she extends her hand and says “Hi” - with a smile.I saw that smile that I have seen in posters, books, magazines, TV and movies.. and it was aimed … at me.. Craigy…
I swallowed a CHUNK of saliva and blurt out … ” I have LOVED you since I was 8 years old” and the roller coaster began.Kylie smiled broader and let out a little squeal.. “Ahh Oh My God” she says.. our hands are still gripped.. I go to pull my hand away and realise she still has a firm grip on me. Kylie’s other hand comes down and pats my hand.
I was ok. I was fine.I had survived intial contact and the meeting wasnt ending anytime soon.It was almost as like the moment she touched my hand,I was calmed and cooled. She asked me if I was coming to the show and we started talking fashion and about her “shoe of the day” twitter pics.. ” Do you know how hard that is to do?’ .. I proceeded to open my can of gay and talk about a particular pair of shoes I had gay squealed over earlier that week! ..
In that one moment I felt like it didn’t matter that I was not a “Gay-lister” (what i call an A List Gay) and during our meeting it did not even seem to bother Kylie in the slightest. Kylie was LOOKING AT and SPEAKING TO ME and at first I was the one looking around the room almost too shy to look at her. I kept telling myself that This may never happen again and FOCUS. Kylie made me feel like I was the only one in the room for that meeting, even turning her back to the crowd to chat to me. I don’t think that Kylie was expecting to meet a fan fan especially at such an exclusive event. I vaguely recall the crowd standing around and watching us. I did hear someone say “she seems to know him” .
After our chat we got to have some pictures taken with Kylie and I was in heaven. Stunned, amazed and found it hard to concentrate for a bit. I would like to say a HUUUUGE thankyou to PAUL!! for snapping some unofficial pics too!
As official speeches were about to start for the event Kylie was being moved near to the stage and my parting words to her were “Welcome home Kylie” she turned back to me, smiled dipped her head into her shoulder her eyes sparkled and she almost whispered… “Thankyou”.
Whilst her record company made some speeches I was positioned next to Terry ( her manager from day 1) and at one point without even thinking and after his coughing fit subsided. I remember looking at him, he smiled.I smiled and then I said “I have loved her since I was a child and I want to say thank you for never giving up..EVER” Terry I think went to speak and swallowed a rising cough and SMILED and patted my arm.
A little setlist of her old and new hits followed and I was front row for that too! Also for her 3 Sydney shows where she smiled and gave me a little wave to me, I shamefully asked for her to look for me and give me a little wave during her Les Folies show the following evening.
After Kylie had left I was left paddling in a pool of endorphins and absolute gratitude to Charlotte for being such a sweetheart and making my dream come true. I was in a room containing people I have respected and admired for many years and I knew how lucky I was.
I was so dazed and returned to Earth just in time see Jonny from Stereogamous- whom I have know for a couple of years now.( Stereogamous Dj’d the event and created remixes of “Cupid Boy” my favourite track from the album “Aphrodite” ). Jonny gave me the most incredible post Kylie meeting hugs. I really needed it and I can tell you that Jonny is known not only in Sydney but GLOBALLY for his hugs.
Chatted with Ryan “Fitzy” from Nova who introduced himself and his gorgeous wife. Fitzy looked me up and down and was kind of bit baffled why a shaved head boofhead like me was there.. I must have closed the lid on my gay can by this time.. I think I had shut down a little. When I explained I was a Kylie enthusiast he was intrigued.
I plan to get a “Minogue tattoo” after and if I ever get the chance to meet Dannii Just to mark the events and a little something to have forever. I know that there will be an “Angel” in my tattoo to represent Charlotte. So I need to start planning because if one dream comes true doesn’t mean a second one cant. :D
Charlotte will always be very special to me NOT only for the opportunity to meet Kylie Minogue but I will ALWAYS be there to be her “Gay Security” in life and not only just for events. A moment in my life shared with a beautiful girl with a glittery big heart, who took one for the team and made my dream come true.
It STILL catches me off guard at times and I have flash backs to that moment, I am left dazed and smiling.. it can only be a good thing right?. I look at the attached photo with this post - taken by Charlotte on her phone just to remind me that it happened.
I thought about all those times I had supported and encouraged others succeed in their dream, suddenly it was MY turn. So many people tried to take that moment from me by being negative and asking why did it not happen to them but I couldn’t get caught up in that but stand up and let that moment wash all over me and I was deserving.
I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed living it.